Again, I am quitting my ‘dieting’. For the exact same reasons why I quit last time, and the time before that. Yes. I am PREGNANT again.

It was a bit unexpected. I think I’ve had my period twice since having Jye, and it’s always taken me longer than that to fall pregnant, I guess I got the timing wrong too and hello, up the duff! I got the implanon put in a few weeks ago, but I guess it was too late and I had already conceived.

So baby number 5 is due in May 2010. I can’t believe I am on this journey again already. I feel a bit scared – I will have 3 kids under 3 AND trying to run a pub with Matt. It’s going to be hard, full on and I hope that I can cope. I also feel happy, why wouldn’t I be happy to have another little one to love!

Deep down I am really hoping for a girl this time. I love my boys to bits, but I really want to have one daughter that I can have that special bond with. I’m frightened of finding out the sex because the chances of it being a girl are probably pretty slim, I’ve got 4 BOYS already. I know each pregnancy is a 50/50 chance, but I don’t think I will end up having a girl. It’ll be hard to get through it if it is a boy, because this is really it for us, Matt is adamant that he is getting the snip. No more babies, no more chances of having a girl.

I feel stupid admitting it because I know there are lots of people out there who would do anything to have a baby and not care if it’s a boy or a girl.

Oh well, it’s out of my hands now, we’ll just have to wait and see.